Alright so.
I honestly don't think I'm gettin' into Artist at the Ready.
Apparently just because I was one minute too late on handing it in I'm not up on the auditions list. Right now I am confused in my emotions so I am calm, but I can assure you later tonight I'm not going to be so calm as I sacrificed almost two weeks of nothing but non-stop drawing and making profiles, even when I was off seeing my friend Kaila I wasn't paying much time to her because I was drawing profiles so I could reach the deadline. I know my comic wasn't the greatest quality, and if I did get in you could probably expect it to be better as I would have more time to make it. But for god sakes, I made it in like a day in a half, and somehow managed to send it in one minute after the deadline. I blame both my computer and myself, as I've been a slow ass all my life, what else would be new, right? But it seems that my computer is as well, due to the fact it likes to freeze every minute and then crash every hour. I would take it in, but seriously? Who actually wants to wait like five months before getting it back only for the piece of shit to be in the exact same condition? No one! HP Computers suck balls and you can fucking cook a damn egg on it because it get so hot! I bet if I left my arm by the fan blower I could get first degree burns! I'm like ready to take my mother's sludge hammer and smash it, and then poor acid all over it, throw it's remaining into a plastic bag, take it to the HP company, and throw it in their face! And now! On top of all that AatR won't let me in the auditions list. How lovely, I'm just so fine and dandy I could carve smiley face's all over my walls.
One minute man, one minute, this is fucking incredible. And thus my delightful mood, I start looking at my art with disgust ten times more then I usually do, and hate it to pieces, because I need to get BETTER! God I just hate when people are better then me, but I really need to get over it because no matter how hard I try there are always going to be someone better than I am in the world. I'm full of it, I know, just like half my characters, did you notice? Eh... Whatever, I need a job, before I become some kind of window squeegeer downtown asking for change when I'm forty. Though every time I look there's nothing really there that suits my fancy, but I need to stop being so god damn picky. And now with my last resort I'm going to try and bribe AatR, I'm a sad story, I know, but I will NOT go so far as begging, fuck that man, I'm not that sad of a person. even If I don't make it into the 64 I don't care, as long as I had a place on the audition list. Other then that my mothers gone for a week and I'm all alone. How boring. Now there's no one to annoy. Yep, I might as well just go find a job, because my life's a train wreck when it comes to baring excitement, which it never does. FML.
I'm just like... Gonna go nap now.
I'm sleepy, been pullin' all nighters for the last three days.
Emotions + Being a girl + Lack of sleep + Wasting my time with bullshit = A not so happy Sarah.
Peace, I'm outie.
P.S. I don't want any sympathy.
EDIT :: Fuck it, I'm not even gonna try bribing them or asking why I'm not on there.
Fuck it.
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25k Kiribian
Catch it,
and I'll draw anything you want me too.
Well... Almost anything.
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